Not sure what happened today, but the past few days have been super tough with lily. When she returns from her visits she is hard. She starts and ends her days with huge fits. Today I found myself in a downward spiral crying to Heavenly Father saying "I cant't do this anymore". I think in my frustration I was crying to the lord to take this from me and bare it for me. I am often reminded many times that Christ bore a lot more than I am asked to bear.
While sitting outside the Brigham temple an hour after the fits I had an impression that heaven,y Father created and blessed us with so many beautiful things including the temple. Just as he does that, he also created us to be beautiful. We just have to take the opportunity to do something about it. To become the beautiful person we are meant to be through and with Christ.
10/12/2012- bodies
This weekend we were out of town to island park with our neighbors. Nelson and I went for a run together. I expressed my frustration with always having pain in my body. Nelson reinsured me that I keep figuring out it by bit and he strong,y felt I would continue to do so. In relief society our lesson was on the word of wisdom. The teacher stated...... we are all here to master our bodies no matter the challenge. I fell this applies to me especially where I have plenty to continue to figure out.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Friday, October 12, 2012
Heavenly Father has buoyed me up- Laura story
Today as I walked out my deep tissue massage I realized how blessed I truly am. I have gone to the doctor a number of times to figure out why I have so much pain. The last appointment I had he told me my back muscles are constantly spasming. I have been trying to keep it under control, but sometimes I can't. When I just can't that's when I need help. I go to a massage where they dig all the knots out of my back. It is rather painful and far from enjoyable. With the girls in our home, Nelson as bishop and stress in my sisters life, I have a lot going on.
Today I realized how much a loving Heavenly Father is aware of me how he has buoyed me up and giving me the strength to keep going. He has shown me many tender mercies.
I know my Heavenly Father knows and most of all loves me. He gives me no more than I can handle
Today I realized how much a loving Heavenly Father is aware of me how he has buoyed me up and giving me the strength to keep going. He has shown me many tender mercies.
I know my Heavenly Father knows and most of all loves me. He gives me no more than I can handle
Sunday, October 7, 2012
darkness- Laura lesson
I usually meet my friends in the early (dark) hours of the morning to enjoy a run. The good thing about hat time of day is it is quiet. I usually have sometime to reflect on the person I am, the day And my life. I love these quiet moments of the day. Love to realize what I am blessed with.
Today my back pain was super high, which effects my whole body including my legs. Even if I have done nothing my legs feel super weak. I decided to cut off from the group. I found myself running on the dark bumpy rocky canal road alone.
It made me start thinking a lot about life. How easy it is to be caught in darkness. To be caught in those dark, rocky paths where we can't see much around us. Where we get frightened and hope we can find our way back. I often find myself praying why did I put myself on this dark path on my own. Heavenly Father help me be safe and not bump into a itching undesirable. So it is with the dark paths we get ourselves in. Hopefully we are seeking heaven,y Father, saying where did I get myself, help me get out.
When I am running I see some of the most beautiful things Heavenly Father has blessed us with, stars, moon, sunsets etc...
Today my back pain was super high, which effects my whole body including my legs. Even if I have done nothing my legs feel super weak. I decided to cut off from the group. I found myself running on the dark bumpy rocky canal road alone.
It made me start thinking a lot about life. How easy it is to be caught in darkness. To be caught in those dark, rocky paths where we can't see much around us. Where we get frightened and hope we can find our way back. I often find myself praying why did I put myself on this dark path on my own. Heavenly Father help me be safe and not bump into a itching undesirable. So it is with the dark paths we get ourselves in. Hopefully we are seeking heaven,y Father, saying where did I get myself, help me get out.
When I am running I see some of the most beautiful things Heavenly Father has blessed us with, stars, moon, sunsets etc...
My cousin Rhonda
My cousins wife was currently in the Murray hospital for 24 weeks. She has diabetes and it has attacked her body. She has faced years of challenges from this disease. This current challenge has caused problems with her vision, her internal organs and her legs and feet. With this last hospital stay she had to have her leg amputated. What pain and sorrow she has suffered. Yet she has had such faith to stay faithful.
I finally went to visit her on her 24th week stay in the hospital. I pondered a lot of questions. Why? Why doesn't it take me so long to reach out to someone in need. Why have I not been serving her earlier. As I heard in conference today I need to be in tune and find more wAys to serve.
Trampoline moving
This spring we ended up getting our kids a new trampoline. We have been use to a smaller round trampoline that can be moved rather easily by yourself. We decided to get a rectangle tramp to allow our kids for more jumping space. Not on,y did we get a bigger tramp, we now have two tramps. The kids have spent countless hours jumping on those trampolines. We have even been asked if our kids were grounded to the tramp. The downfall to our backyard set up is mowing
Each week the duty of mowing falls upon me. I mow as far as I can until I come to those trampolines. I stop my mower and grab a leg of the tramp. I tug and tug and it hardly even moves. I find myself discouraged and frustrated as I tug and pull all the tramps and it barely moves. I have gotten into a routine I count 1,2,3 pull one leg and move to the other and repeat the same thing. Rotating from side to side until the tramp is finally moved where I want it.
Weekly as I go through this silly routine I always think of the same thing. I think of our challenges in life and how we want to just move over them and be done. We want the, to be moved quickly instead of doing step by step and learning and growing in each phase. It's a gentle reminder to me that I need to be patient on Heavenly Father own time and not mine. Be willing to learn and grow along the way.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Laura's personal lessons from sept 30,2012
No gas no gas left in my car-
Last week I let our week get away from us. There was a lot we didn't get done but needed to. Before I knew it we were canning on Sunday just to fit it all in. I realized I needed to manage better to make it so I did no have to do that.
Well that was not all- I let my gas tank get too low and before I knew it I was way to low on gas and it was Sunday.my instant thought without hesitation, guess I will be going to the gas station. I was that willing to break the sabbath because of my lack of preparation. I then figured out I should try doing my own part and dumped our lawn mower gas. My luck it wasn't working. So I had to borrow from my neighbor . How often do we find ourselves red face and begging others for our lack of preparation and lack of good choices? I need to do more to not be found in these situations .
Do more venture out-
Lately I have had conflicts and been judging what others have been doing with their time. After asking for the spirit I had to realize it was not my job nor right to judge them. It was their choice. I found peace by realizing that my goal is for my kids to know I am here for than and will support all aspects of their life.
Last week I let our week get away from us. There was a lot we didn't get done but needed to. Before I knew it we were canning on Sunday just to fit it all in. I realized I needed to manage better to make it so I did no have to do that.
Well that was not all- I let my gas tank get too low and before I knew it I was way to low on gas and it was Sunday.my instant thought without hesitation, guess I will be going to the gas station. I was that willing to break the sabbath because of my lack of preparation. I then figured out I should try doing my own part and dumped our lawn mower gas. My luck it wasn't working. So I had to borrow from my neighbor . How often do we find ourselves red face and begging others for our lack of preparation and lack of good choices? I need to do more to not be found in these situations .
Do more venture out-
Lately I have had conflicts and been judging what others have been doing with their time. After asking for the spirit I had to realize it was not my job nor right to judge them. It was their choice. I found peace by realizing that my goal is for my kids to know I am here for than and will support all aspects of their life.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Save someone's life
I have a journal that I write some random thoughts in... I'm going to add those things into this so they are not lost.
While Nelson is bishop he holds bishop youth discussion at our house. The kids come over and he teaches them, the youth love it. Last night Nelson told them about when he was 16-17 years old and had to take over his dads carpet business to provide for his family.
One August day he was on the third floor of an apartment working. He was looking out the window daydreaming when he noticed a little girl face down in the pool. He and his cousin ran down the stairs to get her out of the big aprattment pool. They were able to get the water out of her air way and get her breathing.
He told the youth we all have situations where we need to be "saved" so many times we can help others.
He challenged the youth to find someone to "save" and send him a text of what they did. I took the challenge and this is what happened to me...I was driving home from picking lily up from preschool when a car pulled in front of me. I honked my horn because I was a little irritated. I kept going but noticed they looked lost. The spirit whispered to go back. I followed them wondering if they were lost they came to the four way stop and headed down 1200 towards by house. I said a little prayer if they are lost have them pull over. They pulled over right in front of the veterans home. I pulled my car down our street and jumped out. I asked them if they needed help. They were from Idaho and were very lost. I got the number of where they were heading and called and got directions for them. They were the sweetest people I have ever met.
What a tender mercy I was blessed with in order to help someone out. I am sure it wouldn't of happened if I hadn't prayed for guidance that day or watched for opportunities. I learned a lot from thT challenge from Nelson.
While Nelson is bishop he holds bishop youth discussion at our house. The kids come over and he teaches them, the youth love it. Last night Nelson told them about when he was 16-17 years old and had to take over his dads carpet business to provide for his family.
One August day he was on the third floor of an apartment working. He was looking out the window daydreaming when he noticed a little girl face down in the pool. He and his cousin ran down the stairs to get her out of the big aprattment pool. They were able to get the water out of her air way and get her breathing.
He told the youth we all have situations where we need to be "saved" so many times we can help others.
He challenged the youth to find someone to "save" and send him a text of what they did. I took the challenge and this is what happened to me...I was driving home from picking lily up from preschool when a car pulled in front of me. I honked my horn because I was a little irritated. I kept going but noticed they looked lost. The spirit whispered to go back. I followed them wondering if they were lost they came to the four way stop and headed down 1200 towards by house. I said a little prayer if they are lost have them pull over. They pulled over right in front of the veterans home. I pulled my car down our street and jumped out. I asked them if they needed help. They were from Idaho and were very lost. I got the number of where they were heading and called and got directions for them. They were the sweetest people I have ever met.
What a tender mercy I was blessed with in order to help someone out. I am sure it wouldn't of happened if I hadn't prayed for guidance that day or watched for opportunities. I learned a lot from thT challenge from Nelson.
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